It's Tough to Have a Crush

If a person had a long-standing history of hopping out of your nice and tidy "As Good As Gay" box...

And if that person was in a relationship and off-limits...

But seemed to be verbally and physically propositioning you anyway during the time he was coupled...

And you found that person entirely attractive...



Then if that person suddenly became single, and therefore no longer off limits...

And then at a party a couple of days later, in his newly-single state, was drunkenly throwing himself at every female in sight -- EXCEPT for you...

That would suck.




And if, at said party, he made a comment about how he wanted you to lose your virginity to some random guy in London by the time your study abroad program ended...

I think you'd feel pretty justified in throwing a back-handed slap square in his chest.



(Of course, you'd apologize the next day. But it wouldn't matter, as he was so drunk that he had no recollection of anything.)



And you'd feel silly. And jealous of every girl that he preferred to you. And even sillier for feeling jealous.

And once again, you'd go back to attempting to talk yourself out of him. And try to stuff him back into that nice neat little box that he rejects so often.




May you find people to want who want you back.

~A~