To the Universe

Okay, so I keep hearing lately that if you want something, sometimes you have to say you want it. Put it out into the universe.

I've prayed. And lit candles at Mass (which have been surprisingly successful). And I finally just sent an e-mail to the Head of my program about something that I really want.

So I'm going to put it into the internet, where it will surely reach all expanses of the universe.

I WANT GOOD CASTING NEXT YEAR!!!

I want to be one of the stewardesses in Boeing Boeing.

I know that they've already cast one of the three stewardesses as an Equity actress, and rumor has it that they chose the show with one of my fellow classmates in mind for another of them. So that only leaves one role left that could possibly go to me, and it could just as easily go to the classmate whom I seem to be interchangeable with. And she has requested the show as well. But she gets everything. I JUST WANT THIS ONE THING. PLEASE GOD LET ME GET THIS ONE. I NEED TO WIN ONE RIGHT NOW!!!

I would also really, really, really like to be in Bonnie & Clyde. It seems like a total long-shot... But even if I get into that (which, don't get me wrong, would be AMAZING AND AWESOME), I'm guessing I'd be in the background chorus, not in an interesting role.

And I just want one good role while I'm in grad school. Just one.

They chose 6 shows for next year's season:
- One play is only men.
- One play has no women under the age of 50
- One play has four women characters who are all TINY roles. The best among them only speaks one word at a time (which is funny, I guess). The other three don't show up until part way through the final act, and are (frankly) indistinguishable from each other.
- One play has 6 female roles (and a bazillion male roles, as usual), none of which I seem to be right for. (One is a "plump" woman, one is half-black, two are "old", and the other two small roles -- usually played by one woman -- are rumored to be cast already).
- Bonnie & Clyde (which, like I said, is a long shot, but I would be lucky -- and honored -- to be in the chorus of)
- Boeing Boeing -- a play with 4 women and 2 men.

I've read all the plays with women in my age range. Boeing Boeing is the one I'm right for. It's a silly, ridiculous, shallow, hilarious little play. And I am, if I may say so, a silly, ridiculous, shallow, hilarious little girl.


I just don't want this year to be a repeat of last year. I don't want them to think, "Oh, Angela can do anything, so we'll just put her wherever we need someone." This, my friends, is the curse of not having a strong type. I understand that it can be a blessing to not be pigeon-holed, but it also means that no one thinks of me first for anything.


And really, I don't want to leave this place without having a real role. Because honestly, if I can't get a good role here, how can I expect to get a good role anywhere?

And it's not for lack of talent or effort! (I'm sorry to brag, but it's true.) I'm good at what I do. Very good. And I think you'd be hard-pressed around here to find anyone to tell you otherwise.


I remember an episode of Seinfeld about how things have a way of evening out. I'm not complaining, but I think the black stones have been piling up on the scale in the last eight months of my life (yes, this is an allusion to Lost. Sorry for mixing karmic television ideas). I need a big white stone to balance out my scale. And the white stone that I want is good casting.



May God smile on us all.

~A~