1. I've been placed on Vocal Rest again. No talking for me. It blows. So do my sore throat and cough.
2. The Engineer was a my date to the opening of Winter's Tale, and he was pretty charming. He's taking me out on Tuesday. We'll see what happens.
3. Moby is a dead end.
4. Remember Guy #4, the one who only flirts with me when no competition is around? I've been around him under those conditions a few times recently. I think he asked me out. Of course, I'm sick and voiceless at the moment, so I canceled... But one of these days, I'll probably have to give him some sort of blog-code-name.
Anyway. Aside from illness, I'm doing pretty well at the moment. Classes are challenging, but I enjoy them.
I'm terrified about my understudy stuff, but I'm sure I'll be able to fake it if I have to go on. Honestly, if I end up paraphrasing a little Shakespeare, how many people in the audience are ACTUALLY going to know? If I say "thou" where it's supposed to be "you", or "succeeds" instead of "persuades"... Yes, I'LL know (and will feel like an idiot in retrospect), but I don't think anyone will ask for their money back.
I've adjusted to my ADHD meds. I am, for the most part, back to normal. I'm definitely an improved version of myself. Of course, the person I am without the meds is so deeply ingrained in the minds of everyone around that I doubt they notice the changes (except for the people I've told, that is). But that's fine. It's not about them.
I'm pretty stable at the moment, which is not something that can be said about all of my classmates. I'm very fortunate in that.
Yes, I may have had a night last week when I freaked out, realized that I am a generic white girl who will struggle even booking auditions, and wondered if I should leave this profession.
Yes, I may have removed some already published blog posts in a paranoid fit that people down here might read them (even though I'd already been pretty careful about what I'd written).
Yes, I may have had to take a day recently where I cried hysterically, vented incoherently in the general direction of my roommate, ate inexcusable amounts of junk food, and watched about 5 reruns of The Office (which may or may not have been boy-problem-induced).
But you know what? At least I know how to handle my issues. I know what I need to do to make myself feel better. I know when I have to take time for me, in order to save my sanity. And thus far, I have not had any freak-out session last more than about 4 hours.
May you know how to stay balanced.
~A~
Monday, January 26, 2009
Even Keel
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hey there! i've stumbled across your blog from 20sb and just wanted to say hi.
great post by the way. i agree that sometimes i struggle with my blog and who may read it from time to time too. it's hard to keep a balance between being tactful and respecting people's privacy all while discussing my own life and venting for my own benefit.
ahhh i think that's the beauty (and struggle) of blogging. glad you've found a balance.
Sometimes junk food & excessive amounts of The Office are all anybody needs to get out of their funks.
At least, I was pretty much doing the exact same thing as you the other day. So it's quite normal.
Hang in there! Hope your voice gets better asap!
omg lost your voice? I experience it a lot too..have you tried ginger tea? Or a spoonful of lime mixed with soy sauce? not kidding. It helps.:)
Everyone is sick these days, all across the country. Weird how that works.
In consolation of circumstances, all I can say is this: Keep your eye on the silver linings, miss Angela.
Also, good thing I'm a regular reader because I did see some of those posts go the way of the Mammoth.
Soy sauce with lime sounds... good, actually. But I missed lunch and haven't had dinner yet, so...
Yeah, I'm totally commenting on a comment and not the original post. Oops.
I knew some blog entries were missing!
It sounds like things are going swimmingly! Good luck with the Engineer this week!
"I end up paraphrasing a little Shakespeare, how many people in the audience are ACTUALLY going to know?"
So true, lol!
1. I think you should paraphrase Shakespeare just for giggles. Like an inside joke that only you know. I'm sure there's a purist or two out there somewhere looking to put my head on a platter now for voicing that opinion.
2. I'm glad that you've figured out how to keep yourself balanced. I haven't gotten that far in life, yet.
Just wanted to say that I'm still reading your blog, even if I hardly ever comment(I admit I skim posts sometimes, skip one or two when I'm busy with other stuff, or whatnot).
Also, get well soon! Having a sore ris never fun.
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